June

I have found renewed love for my crochet since stumbling into a very active Ravelry.com group called "Vanna's Choice Fan Group." They are funny and wise and constantly keeping my interest in crochet at a fever pitch. I've joined a swap - 20 squares in five set colors that I'll make and send out into the world, and 20 different squares will come to me for an afghan. Loving it so far! I've also signed up for the "mysteryghan" - which I've never participated in before. The pattern designer sends out "clues" every week with instructions for a motif. I make the motifs, then wait anxiously for the next clue. For Ms Control Freak, it's freeing to jump off the ledge not knowing what the final project will look like. So far, it's lovely, and I'm very happy with it. I come home from work every day just wanting to get out my yarn and HOOK!

I got through Anna's birthday this week. Five birthdays without her now. Big difference between an 17-year-old and a 23-year-old. What have I missed? What has SHE missed! I feel more and more like only a few of us are remembering her anymore. I know that happens - people have lives that fill up with so much other stuff. I remember her. Constantly. Every day. I know Jes does - and Katie - and Ashley. I just want to scream - DON'T FORGET HER! DON'T FORGET MY ANNA!!! So consider that my screaming for the day.

Chuck has a new job (again) - starts Monday as maintenance guy for two apartment complexes. Fingers crossed he'll last long enough to get me back on my financial feet. Paying real estate taxes and insurance out of pocket every June and December kills me! Where do they expect me to come up with an extra $500?

He is off on an overnight camping trip, so I'm going to get off the computer and get out my yarn and hooks and patterns and have some crochet fun. (yes, I know I'm a geek - proud of it)